Week 2

So week 2 of working in Sabah now. (Week 3 since I came here) Time sure flies. Like really slowly... I think the term used by Cathy is quite appropriate in this context. The days are passing by really slowly yet the months are passing by in a blink of an eye. Does that even make sense?

I wouldn't say that I have not learnt in Klinik Kesihatan. Cos most of the time we would think that doctors rot in Klinik Kesihatan as we're not exposed to like life threatening events and just deal with common coughs and colds. But it is here where we actually detect those conditions before it escalades. It's preventive, and curative at the same time. I'm learning more and more on how to treat hypertension and diabetes as time goes on. I'm learning every single day and hopefully not miss anything too big as I go on. If I'm at a doubt I ask.

You know like how patient come to you with one high reading of BP. I mean not sky high like 200/110. More like 150/90. Patient did not take anti hypertensive this morning. So how? Would you increase the dosage with just one reading? So it's a different kind of challenge. Say if you have a patient with isolated proteinuria of 4+ (like the patient I had this morning and it has been there for past 3 years now), what do you do? It's this kind of things that makes it a little more tricky to treat.

All in all, I guess there's no regrets coming here. I've got a lot more time in hand to do some thinking. And also with me taking 3 meals a day, that's when gastritis hits me. *sweat* When I was in emergency department I was surviving on 1 meal a day and no problem at all. Now here I am taking in ranitidine, syrup MMT to cure my gastritis/dyspepsia. Slept the whole day yesterday and now on the road to recovery. Hopefully I'll be alright soon. Feeling a tad weak but that's fine. 

Otherwise, I'm shifting into my new place by this week! *shrieks in delight* yes my very own place for the first time ever. Excited of course! It's a studio apartment, partially furnished just minus a few kitchen items and all. Below are a few photographs of my new place!

The living room

Kitchen + laundry (note no gas stove)

The dry kitchen + dining area

Bathroom (hot shower!)

Bed room (didn't take pic of the cupboard though)

Doesn't look too bad no? Excited to buy things and fill it in. I've spent so much money since shifting here it's not even funny. But oh well, hopefully later after I settle down it'll get better. So that's all from me now. Will update again soon

Missing Home

So week 1 in Sabah. I'm blogging more often now neh? It's just due to my lack of companionship here. *cries* #theuglytruth

I really shouldn't compare and shouldn't complain. At times I just can't help it and just want to vent it out. See back home, I know that family is just a half hour's drive away. There I'd be greeted with warm hugs, love and just pure comfort. It just nice to know that somewhere you're so familiar with is just so close and easily accessible. Omg I can't believe I'm tearing writing this. Such a baby I know. I mean everyone will go through it eventually. But just lemme be a baby just for a tad while.

To be continued.

Embracing Changes

I think reality is starting to hit upon me as the day I'm about to leave inch closer and closer. I've always found comfort in writing on my blog whenever I hit a really tough road block. That's why I think I'm writing again. 

To those closer to me would know that I'd be leaving this Sunday to serve the state that I have grown very fond of. Yes that's Sabah. I'm heading back there again after putting a useless 'fight' against my superior to stay over here in Peninsular Malaysia. Don't take it the wrong way, I don't particularly hate Sabah, but it's just home here. It's overseas there! (yes I tend to be a tad dramatic whenever such situation pops up) I've enjoyed Sabah during my 5 years of studying over there. Made lots of awesome friends along the way, friendship that would last a lifetime. Some of them are still there awaiting for me to arrive. But I'm still having this heavy heart.

The only thing holding me back from going back there I guess is family for now. I don't have any particular 'boyfriend' in whom I can't let go and must stay here. Its just my irreplaceable family. Gone will be the times when I can just drive 1/2 an hour back home (and at times complain why la so far!). Gone will be the times I make surprise visits back to just see my grandma and grandaunt. Gone will be the time I get to attend family gatherings during the weekend without the extra hassle. I'm just looking at things so negatively now.

I'm also actually worried about the unknowing condition that awaits me in Sabah. Yes they have replied my email stating I'd be posted in Kawasan Tuaran. But there's the extra quote there saying they have the power to overwrite that decision according to the needs of the state. So you want to put me in Pensiangan? Kinabatangan? Semporna? AAAAAAAAHHHHHH. Yes I'm scared. I've never been one to be comfortable with changes and now you leave me hanging till 12th of October? Kill me now! Kill me!!!

Okay chillax. I think I'll be hyperventilating if I continue to think like that. So breathe in, breathe out. It'll all get better. So now I think I'll sit back, chillax and think of my next strategy to relax. Till then!

C