Ever feel like there's so much going on around you and you just want it to stop? And how you'd just like to coop up in your own room doing nothing but just spending some quality time with yourself? Well that's exactly how I feel currently. Plus it's my one week break, and with my roomie gone, I'd have the whole room to myself! Can't wait.
So it has been really a hectic half a year, and to think about it another half a year I'd be out of medical school, finally getting my degree (please lemme pass, please lemme pass) and in to the real world! Now I'd say time flies, but really it has been a tough 5 years. There's bound to be regrets and also some low points, but then let's not look into that and just focus on the positive. It's another half year, 6 months (actually I'd be done by early May so it's 4 months plus), and it'd all be over. All 80 of us, out to every corner of the country and wondering when we'd ever meet again.
Okay, I'm getting sentimental already. And I kinda ran out of the topic I wanted to talk about. My sis mentioned this habit of mine to me the other day, how I'm not focused and kept jumping from 1 topic to another. Now I understand. So back to being by yourself. See we always say about spending quality time with family, friends, loved ones etc etc. How about ourselves? You know how at times, you'd just want to walk by without anyone knowing who you are, and just be invisible for a moment. It's kind of weird how everyone is finding a way to fit in, and now here I am trying to be invisible. But just hear me out for a moment.
I wouldn't say I'm popular amongst friends. That'd be like an overstatement. Let's just say I'm just an ordinary girl whom some people acknowledge of my existence. Recently I've found out how I had manage to grow close to a few people whom are not close to another, or just plain each other. Take I'm friend with A, B, C, D and E. So A hates B, B despises C, C hates D's guts, D practically just ignores existence of E. You get the idea don't you (maybe I'm exaggerating a lil but they just don't like each other). So me being stuck in between all of them somehow have to find time to somehow spend some time with them. I did not realise until recently when this friend of mine kept making me choose to spend time with either of them. It's like.. wtf?
Okay I kinda sound like a brat now. But you know how friends are supposed to make you feel good about yourself. And it'd shouldn't be seen as a task to spending time with them Yet somehow I'm getting a feeling of that. That's how this post came about. I'm a person who feel guilty easily. So after this whole incident I felt like a doormat. >.< It's not a good feeling at all! That's why I needed this alone time, just some quality time with myself, a few storybooks, a few dramas and just be with myself. Hopefully at the end of the day I'd see the light and it's guide me to the right path (wtf?). Lol
My 1 week holidays just begun and a lot of cleaning to do actually. I just realised I have a lot of clothes here in Sabah and wondering how the heck I'd be bringing them back to PD. Hmmm. I better get back to my cleaning, it wouldn't get done by itself! Till the next post! I'm thinking of a Christmas post!
-KaRLeeN-
