Week n a half in summary~

It's been a week n a half already? Time sure flies. So let's recap what had happened

17/03/08
Writing the date now only i realise it's '08 already. Sorry la. Not studying. so used to writing '07. Be4 u kno it, it's '09 aldy. Okie, okie back to the story. So had to go back to school way early in the morning, like back to school, jz in normal clothing. But we were treated vy warmly unlike usual. Took our respective awards(we got cash!) n attended d most dreadful n long winding talk ever! She practically explained all we have already known! Enuf abt it. D talk lasted 4 2hours plus! haih. Then off to Pizza Hut to celebrate Pj's bd, then back home to perform my hobby, fan gao! hey! i din get my 8 hours of sleep k?

18/03/08
I finally finished my application for NUS. Passed the writing school of wayne, eileen n izzy for my admissions essay! But really hv to thank Pn. Florence for proof reading it, checking all my grammar n vocab error. Hv to treat her 1 day. Oh yes! I still owe Wayne roti canai. I din forget la wayne. I'll happily belanja u when u come back la. I know promise quite d long d rite. But a promise is a promise. Janji mesti ditepati like wat u said. Soon, soon~

19/03/08
My bro's 15th birthday! He's 15 already? My lil' bro is growing up fast! Jz look at him u'll kno. He's so proud of his height n keep ejeking me bein' short. Imagine tat! Some1 sayin I'm short. Yes, yes. That's my bro. So anyway, on tat particular morning went to school(again), jz accompany frens to meet up with a few teachers la. Tat particular evening oso did something out of d ordinary. I went n played badminton wit frens. 1st time ever! Hahaha. Tennis to badminton pula. It was fun for a change from d ordinary yam cha session. Instead of piling up d calories, we're actually losing some together! Hahahaha. Later tat nite continued the Chong family tradition, out for dinner with whole family to celebrate chiang boy's bd. Jie, we din forget u. We missed u! So diff without u around. I miss u. So here's a few snap shots:

King of d day (act is practically everyday)

My lovely parents!

Me n d birthday boy!
Chiang boy thinking:"When la my food gonna come?"

Cam whoring to kill some time

After dinner, back home to cut cake!

D birthday cake i bought for chiang boy! American CHOCOLATE!

They missed d G la! but it still looks pretty kan?

Wishing hard! Guessing he wants 7A's 4 pmr?

Mummy dear, me n birthday boy!
D present i bought 4 chiang boy. Body glove surf pants.I myself would not
even splurge tat much on a clothing item!
Jie, we missed u! *muacks*

20/03/08
Had to get out of the house. So off to tennis coaching with daddy!

21/03/08
Did something I've wanted to do 4 a long time. I kno tis might sound weird, I've always wanted to eat wit a big spoon! Hahahaha. Influence from korean dramas! Hahahaha. So got rained in, had to have dinner at home. I cooked 4 me n my bro! Hahahaha. More like cook n heat up la. But still i cooked! Hahahaha. Later parents brought some fried rice back home. My opportunity to eat wit a big spoon! Hahahaha. I really did eat wit a big spoon! Hahahaha..

C i told u i did!

Doin it wit a smile on my face! Hahahaha.. mission accomplish!

21/03/08
Had ping pong club close on tis particular sat. I joined the ladies' event. Hv to retain my title from last year. Competition was tough! Eh don underestimate these ladies. They're good! Forgotten to take pics while playing(alamak!) but took some during tea.

The ladies!

Me together with d men n the kids!

The organizers!

I managed to retain my title!

22/03/08-27/03/08
Spent most of my time at home. I've really became a homely person. It's either, eat, sleep, clean or sleep. Oh not forgetting play. Hahahaha. Tis week was also d mssmdpd tennis. I cant join no more. :( Overage. But bro manage to get 3rd n is representing d district 4 d state level championship! Hopefully he makes the NS team tis year. Fingers crossed! Chiang boy gambatte!

28/03/08
So today went to Chung Hua High. Dprivate chinese school tat i nv dared to step foot on jz d fact tat they use chinese language on all their core subjects! Scary~ But going there was jz like going back to primary school all over again! Every1 speaking chinese, n only chinese. U can act wear shorts around without teachers complainin u r a girl, don wear shorts n show off ur legs! It happened to me back in high school! It really did. Happened in camp as well. Haih~ Anyway, I was there as a volunteer for an ongoing motivational course. I had no idea wat as happenin tat day n jz went without thinking twice. Next thing i kno, I'm stuck in d APD room with a bunch of noisy form 3s listening to motivational talks! Talk abt being in a nitemare! I was there from 9am-2pm. But at least I got to do something I've always wanted to try. Acting! Hahahaha. They had an impromptu play n we were jz there to act it there n then. I was considered d 'lead'. Hahahaha. I had a blast! At least I got to do something I've always wanted to try. One day I'll enter a drama club. One day~

29/03/08
So today i went back to school(again?). Not tat I'm in love wit school or anything. Had to go back n attend d pibg meeting. Orders from d assistant principal herself! So went n met my childhood fren, Liew Yih Wey. She's really changed a lot from d days we were training under Uncle Lewin n all. She's been to so many swimmin meets, regionals n overseas! We talked d whole time! Her experience in swimming is really extraordinary! But the amount of effort n time she n her family spent on her swimming training really is a cause to be admired. They really sacrificed A LOT! But they still stuck to it no matter how d going gets tough. N she still hv a smile on her face d whole time she was talkin abt it! Awesome! Come tis May she'll be competing in d M'sian Open, hoping she'll qualify for Olympics in Beijing tis year! Watch out for tis young gun! Back to d story, so 6 of us was invited to get our awards from school. Never would i hv tot to be chosen. Some pics i took. Act only 1. Hahahaah. Wasn't in a pic taking mood.

So here's Yih Wey, future Olmpic participant. Fingers crossed!

Wat i got u asked? Well i would say a vy 'special gift' from school. Who would hv tot? Yes yes. It's d one on top. A luggage! Yes, I had d same reaction as u when i got it. As 4 d blue file up front, I recieved it earlier on 17/03/08. Special, special.

So tat was all tat happened. All those talking, i mean writing, i mean typing has got me hungry~ U cant blame me! I jz had assam fish 4 dinner. Wayne i kno u want some. Yes yes i'll remember to get u d recipe! So time to get off, n indulge in some tasty

CHOCOLATE CAKES!

Till d next post! *muacks*

-karleen-

Horrifying trip!

Last i wrote, i was still pening kepala on what n where to apply and all. Now it's still d same story. Hahahaha.. Bad i know but what to do? Paranoid person like me will always question my decisions before. Thank god I'm an optimistic and happy-go-lucky person (often till the extreme) if not I think I'll be koo~koo by now. Hahahaha..

So to make the decision making process easier (or harder), went down for the Facon edu fair in KLCC last Sunday. Day be4 had a blast in pasar malam. I love walking around pasar malam so much, especially walking with my jie. Tapi she beribu-ribu miles away. Haih~ Takpe takpe. Next time will definitely drag her to pasar malam when she comes back. I think I'm like an aunty in the making. Cos I'd be so excited buying fruits! Everytime also sure 2 or 3 plastic bags containing fruits. Teruk teruk! I'm a self-proclaimed fruits addict. Seriously. But then there's also chocolates, donuts, cakes, McD's etc etc. Balanced it up. Hahahaha..

Back to ori story...Trip down KLCC was smooth all d way. D train load was small n jz nice to get on n off with not much hassle. Went straight to edu fair n asked tons n tons of questions at practically every single booth! Even when I had nothing to do with the booth! Hahahaha.. Thank goodness d fair was not as big as the star edu fair. If not sampai esok pun tak balik! Hahahaha.. But last time when we visited d star edu fair me n companies kinda bodoh2 la.. take brochure lari, take brochure lari. Hahahaha.. So now smarten up d. Got question tembak aje, don care. Get to kno wat u need to kno.
Had some funny moments too. I got so tired of asking so serious question that wen 1 of them offered me a brochure i asked 4 d balloon instead. He got so caught of guard tat he paused a moment n gave it to me. Hahahaha.. So went around proudly parading my green balloon. Somehow ended up I was d only 1 wit green balloon! Others all orange la, purple la, white la. Somemore i so tall, carrying such an obvious colour balloon lagi easy to recognise! Cham lo. Small lil girls oso tak pegang balloon, now here's a 'small lil' girl carrying green balloon pula! Macam mana ni? so went around offering my balloons to small kids la. But I think not charming enuf la me. Everey1 i asked all don wan! Hahahaha.. My fren took tis opportunity kutuk la! I even approached Mr Hilary(d tyson of airlines) with a balloon in hand! Hahahaha.. He was d wan incharged of recruiting my sis as cabin crew. Dahla they trying to make girls look presentable and know how to behave elegantly yet still approachable. Here I m carrying a balloon in hand acting childish! Hahahaha.. Wateva la. In d end, I went back to d booth, gave back to d guy! Hahahaha.. He said ambik la. Wanna give me 2 somemore! somemore be4 tat another fellow offered 3 balloons to me! Apa nie? Gave d fast2 keluar back to LRT.

Trip to KL sentral was still not tat bad. D crowd was big but not big till u had to cramp like sardin. When reach KL sentral, we 3 girls managed to get off the train. But then d guys got stuck inside n couldn't come out! Hahahaha.. Well blame it on inconsiderate M'sians. Yes. I kno I'm a M'sian too. But it's a fact. We jz ignore d sign saying please give way to outgoing passengers becos we're afraid we cant board d train. It's a fact tat we must accept. So they had to go to d next station, get down, get on another train back to KL sentral. Hahahaha.. After tat starts d Horrifying Experience of KTM. We bought tickets back to S'ban but we tot of droppin by at midvalley first. So okie la. When we went downstairs, there was already so many ppl wanting to board the next train. So we waited and more ppl kept comin. We waited 4 almost 30 mins be4 d train finally arrives. So typical human, every1 rushed into d train regardless of letting ppl out of it. Then as selfish as ppl can be, they wouldn't even wanna go to d middle of the train, but chose to stand rite at d door! dahla tak cukup tempat, lagi so jual-ikan! ish ish ish! So 1st train got too full n went of. Luckily after 7 mins later another train arrives. Or shud i say "luckily". D scene was even nastier, even more horrible than be4. All 6 of us got pushed into d train literally! I did not made an effort to even move, yet i was moving! Images of India came to mind where all ppl r scrambling to get onto d train. Tat was wat tat happened! It was HORRIBLE! Somemore hv to be aware of pick poketers, molesters etc etc. Haiyoyo. It was horrible. Somehow all 7 of us got onto d train. We were cramped up like sardins, squashed sardins in a small small can. I was standing on me heels as there was a foot in front of me. N it would be rude to step on it. I was also shouting at tat time :'Stop pushing! Jangan Tolaklah!'. I was freakin out act. As d train left, We had nothin to hold onto so jz stood there hoping not to crashed into d person beside, behind, infront of u. I was so afraid I might jz fall n land on d girl behind me! she'd be squashed by me then! Hahahaha.. Thank god tat din happen. Luckily ours was d 1st stop. Got off the train(wit loads of difficulyties n bumping here n there), wit a sigh of relief. phew~ We could not even imagine how our ride will be later when we r heading back home! Go makan first la.

We had our lunch-tea-dinner at Kim Gary. D food was awesome! Or mayb it was jz us being hungry. Anyway, we finished at around 6, walked around, shopped 4 pj's present while hiding from her, then finally balik at abt 730. Bought tickets, n we were so happy there was no line waiting 4 train. While d other side heading towards KL was so filled wit ppl! We started laughin at them, but only d joke was act on us. Cos as we wait n wait 4 d 'efficient' services of the KTM, our side got more n more packed! Damn! First train finally came at abt 815(n it was scheduled at 755), d door was so freaking small, n nobody made an effort to move to d centre! inconsiderate ppl! So teruk la missed 2 trains in 1 day! so waited another 10 mins 4 d next wan. Somehow miraculously we got onto d train! Mission accomplish! Who would hv tot gettin on train will be tat tiring? phew~

Tat nite we had yam cha session at abt 1030, n we reached abt 1015 back home. Wat to do? Rush to bathe la! Somemore me n PJ both had to bathe! N i pula for 1 bathe vy slow wan. So fast fast la. To make things even messier than it already is, D place we were supposed to go tutup! Alamak! Change venue. Not once, but twice! Hahahaha.. Thank god Cheng Han din get mad, somemore so nice buy cake n fetch me n PJ. Yea d next day was pj's bd. So enuf of story, let d pics do d talking:

stroke of 12 midnite, cut cake! our tradition 4 d bd boy/girl~

n the ppl who attended d bd celebration includes: Ken Keat, Soh Yee, Allan

Soh Yee, Allan, Cheng Han , Jun Xing..

Cheng Han, Jun Xing, Chien Siew, Shu Na..

Last but not least, BD girl!

her reaction upon receiving her present!

Where m I u asked? holdin d camera of cos! hahaha.. Some photos r better left unrevealed as it might create controversy. Pj n Allan love story. Oops! Hahahaha.. Jz playin a fool.. *yawn* time 4 bed.. Till next long long post! ;P

Decision time!

Since my last 2 posts were kinda depressing, Wayne said i must end it with a happy note. He said don la leave ppl hangin there like tat, feelin down. Must hv happy ending. Although malas, but 4 Wayne, write oso la. hahahaha..
So where did i left it hangin. Oh yeah! A day be4 results. I was seriously freaking out! U cant really blame me 4 tat can ya? Cos it's really do or die 4 me havin done f6. If i were to do badly, it's back to square 1 4 me, bein lost, dunno mana nak pegi. Most ppl will put it as 'told cha to go college straight after spm, c u've wasted 2 years of ur life bla bla bla bla...' Get d idea? D day be4 results I was so freaked out let's jz say i was not really myself. Ppl chat wit me tat nite wud kno. I was even wandering around d house quietly. My parents noticed d difference but din point it out at me. Hahahahaah. They must hv been worried tat nite. I even fell asleep on d couch downstairs instead of goin up to my room n sleep. All weird stuffs happening. Hahahaha. But thank god at least I could sleep 4 abt 3 hours be4 bolting out of bed.
So wat happened on tat day was rumours spreading around results out early. Then came a bad news tat hit me rite on d face. Nobody got 4 flat in school. N i always said u either get 4 flat or u fall flat. So it's like spirit half broken d. Even worse, only a few attained 3A n 1A-. Wa probability it being me kinda low oso. Takpe takpe, pegi cuci baju first la, play wit water first. sure feel better. hahahaha. Reach school abt 12pm. Frens all dunno menghilang mana, 1 pun belum sampai. N i tot i was late. apalah! Saw my form teacher, Pn Haema sitting there. Saw me ny, thumbs up. I was like wat? WAT?? Haiyoyo. Lagi suspend. Got unofficial result. I'm one of d lucky few. Oh god please let it be me. please.. Manatau kena tunggu speech all somemore. Haiyoyo. Dah la suspend d. Nak tambah suspend lagi ke? Finally givin out results. Names of 4A's student called out 1 by 1. 5 science stu only. Name 1 not me. Name 2 not me. Name 3 not me. Name 4 oso not me. Apa ni? 3/4 spirit now gone. Miracles do happen i guess. My name was called. Nak jugak letak last sekali la. Suspend suspend! Got up wobbly from d chair. Made my steps slowly towards the stage. thinkin to myself please don fall please don fall! Reach d stairs. Almost, n i mean almost lost my balance. Thank god i din. hahaha.. went up(they called papa too), took d results with hands shivering legs standin unstably. Hahahaha. Wat a feeling. I did it! I really did it. wat next? Go round share d joy, Thankin all teachers, huggin my dear frens who i've not seen 4 so long! hahahah.. it was a happy moment. 4 me i guess. But for some, not quite so i guess. Awkward, but tat's reality. Wanna console it'll only make them feel worst. So jz be there 4 then i guess.
Later celebration at KFC. Where else could we go? If only la PD got McD's. tapi takde. So KFC jugak la. chatted so long, so much to catch up wit frens. It felt like old times. Comfortable n enjoyable company with ur frens.
Without me knowing, news do travel around fast. Ppl as far from AUH n US oso tau. Scary man. AUH of cos la. Cos i told my dear jie jie ma. Must la share d news wit her! But i was so surprised to hear my fren all d way from US congratulating me. Technology, technology. Scary at times how fast news can spread. As for situation in PD, somehow words r oso spreading around. Ppl comin up congratulating me. It's kinda weird, but it's such a satisfying feeling havin worked so hard 4 it. sigh of relieve. phew~
As for now, decision time. Where to apply? Which course to cont? Which U's d best? All simple questions but U feel so hard answering them. It's like ur future is rite in front of u to decide now! wit a deadline too. hahahaha.. As i've always been told of how good Spore education is, so plannin to apply NUS. Writing essay for d application was tough. It's like promoting urself, but u cant be over braggin, cant be over dramatic, somehow must be modest yet must stand out from d rest of d pile! mission impossible or wat? tapi kena tulis jugak la. But thank goodness i hv my lovely jie jie who's ever so willin to help. N wayne to proof read n give his approval. Not forgetting getting pass izzy wizzy school of essay for university application. So many stages to go thru. N it doesan't end there. There's pa n mi giving valuable advices n my ever so helpful english teacher to check for grammar mistakes. I'm so blessed, i kno! hahahaha..
Oh yea! Must narrate a lil on wat happened while applyin 4 my bank draft today as application fees for NUS. ENter maybank. Scary lady greets u. Tapi i oso tak tau apa2, so asked wit a smile, akak macam mana nak apply bank draft. Wit a sarcastic smile, ambik borang ni, isikan sini apa, sana apa, bla bla bla bla.. so do as she says. Done! Go back to her again. check 4 me, reluctantly givin me a number. As i was waiting for my turn, I kept noticing d lady greeting customers as my no was so far back. As i was watching, i felt kinda sorry 4 her act. She seems so restless, so fed up of her job! At times even lose her patients slightly, raising her voice slightly. Besides her, there was another woman at d counter. She was so free tat she was staring around d whole time i was there! weird how some behind d counter r so bz, n some jz sittin there lost in a world of their own. At last my turn came n i bought my first bank draft! hahaha.. No big deal 4 some, but it was such a big accomplishment 4 me! hahahahah.. I could handle tis without daddy beside me. hhahaah.. Small girl growing up d! hahaha.. Next stop post office. Here d lady greeting me was much much friendlier. She kept smiling d whole time i hept shooting questions after questions at her. She din seem to mind, in fact i think she found it amusing a girl suddenly askin so many questions. Hahahaha.. I don care. At least now i kno wat i need to kno.
I've not been adding pics 4 a long long time. So here's some captured during results day:

wit 1 of my bestest buddies, PJ aka Pei Jun

My mei mei(sonice to come all d way to be there 4 me!), me n PJ

Wit hock at KFC

Wit PJ! So different yet some how we remain as such close frens.. Weird weird!

1 of my oldest frens yet! Syquina. She's so pretty isnt she?
the 4 stooges! hahahaah.. PJ, Me, Hock n Ken Keat.

So after tis, all i hv to do is jz sit back, relax, pray hard n keep my fingers crossed hoping to get into my desired uni wit the course i want. So nerve wrecking. Ok ok. Chill chill. 4 now is party time! hahahaah.. be4 visiting back my 'old frens', d thick thick textbooks. Ahhh! till d next post... ;P

Day out!

In jz a few hours i'll be havin tat white slip in my hands. n then on i'll really kno wat choices i hv later on.. which uni? which subject? which pathway? which career? okie okie.. i'm not gonna get into tat for now.. enuf of tat in d last post.. now on a happy note, trip down sban today..

Got an sms fron ken keat ajakin down sban.. not only we 2 la.. hahahaah.. more like 9 of us today.. but then ho i was so smart tat my license(P license) expire oso tak tau.. so wu tu la! so canty drive down.. wat to do.. tumpang other ppl la.. note:even if my license not expire, no way mummy will allow me drive down sban.. hahahaha.. she still don believe in my drivin.. haih~ but can understand oso la.. hahahaha.. enuf of kutukin sendiri 4 now..

so went down abt 130, reach abt 2.30.. freakin heavy traffic on a monday.. school hols kot.. but still! hahahha.. reach there waited 4 our tickets to arrive.. shermaine bought it but they were downstairs in kfc.. chuei nie bein so smart brought only her ticket up! d other 3 in kfc din wanna watch d movie.. so shu na practically rushed down n up wit our ticket.. enter cinema late n could feel all angry eyes piercing thru u.. hahahah.. so tip toed in sat down.. seat was good though.. got K middle seat.. but it was quite filthy wit all kinda smell in d cinema.. ish! start to concentrate on d movie la.. forget to buy popcorn pula.. had only roti canai 4 breakie now stomach growling pula! alamak! takpe takpe.. watch movie la.. funny stuffs thru out d movie:
1. D costumes r hilarious man! hahahah.. n they seem like poking n itchy.. hahaha.. saw d guy wit small2 bamboos as cap n shirt.. hahahha..
2. 1 crazy lady sitting behind(far far behind) laughin 4 no apparent reasons.. not 4 a short while.. but then 4 abt 3 mins non stop.. hahahaha... then shu na oso another wan.. ppl stop laughin then only she start laughin.. hahahaha..
3. small kid behind.. askin his mom:"mummy mummy! zou meh ye kei tei su ma yet mou yet yong gei? su ma hak hak gei? mummy! kei tei zou meh ye? mummy! mummy!!..." irritating.. but d way he asked vy cute indeed.. u cant help but start laughin urself too.. p/s: he asked y d african puak look d same? all so dark? y r they doin tat?
4. ppl clappin after warrior whacked bad guy.. ppl clap when bad guy whacked good guy? shuhada! hahaahhaa... crazy crazy cinema ppl..
movie was okie la.. watched 10,ooo bc by d way.. it was not superbly awesome but not superbly bad.. jz okie.. but must admit d lead actress is vy pretty.. vy nice features.. vy elegant lookin.. still wondering abt d legend of d blue-eyed-child.. result of entering cinema late.. oops!

After movie go grab a bite.. sat down nicely in igentis after thinkin so susahly wat 2 eat.. ppl shift table n chairs all d.. then suddenly got up n leave.. wakakaka.. they din even bother to greet us at d front door! customer's rite to leave.. sure kena kutuk behind but wat d heck.. so then all blur2 la wat wanna eat.. stand rite in d middle of d 'hall'.. hahahaa.. finally la decided go mcd's.. tapikan nv clear table oso they all.. haiyoyo.. clear oso nv wipe table.. double aiyoyo.. makan oreo mcflurr.. d food tat jie n i wanted to eat when send jie off to auh.. tis is wat u get 4 stayin in a place tat don hv mcd's(please take note to open 1 soon in pee dee.. please!).. hahaha.. went jln2.. met up wit shermaine all again.. shopped 4 my bro's bd gift.. freakin nice.. but not revealing wat i bought! :P hope he likes it.. then went into jusco where shu na went crazy over her kinder bueno.. she bought 6 packs i think.. gila! hahaha.. 6*3=18 packs u kno! hahaha.. all 4 her own.. somemore so slim.. jealous jealous.. next stop arcade.. play basketball la.. higest score oso 137 only.. teruk la! tiring wei.. 3 rounds in a row.. hahahha.. jln2 around.. i think i saw suki(1 in a million).. jz sitting there like a normal person(i mean she's only human.. jz she's a celebrity rite?).. nobody seem to recognise her or approach her 4 autograph.. weird.. she dyed her hair brown which made her looked slightly older.. my point of view only.. hehheeh.. prettier when she was in oiam.. jz d truth!

Suddenly la shu na says hungry.. so makan lagi! hahahaha... n i'm still on a diet.. hahaha.. went to old town kopitiam.. pa mi's fav spot.. shu na had some cash voucher so ended ordering more than wat we can eat! hahaha.. tapi makan jugak.. had curry meehoon, laksa, n another noodle selection.. plus 2 toasts(which was delicious.. kopitiam specialty!).. 2 deserts consisting of bread wit ice cream(delicious on first bite.. too cold on 2nd bite.. how to finish third bite!).. each ordered a drink.. i had some enrich chocolate thingy which was jz okie(i miss auh's hot choc!).. they had d white coffee, hazelnut coffee, n mocha coffee.. i don drink coffe so no comment.. ahahhaah.. everybody ate till we literally gonna bao za!(burst!).. then la hock must oso come up wit his theory.. here goes:
mandarin: wo ba you 5 ge hai zi. 3 ge nu er, 2 ge hai zi.
translated: my dad has 5 children,. 3 daughters, 2 children.
then we went ???? wat??? hahahahaha.. asked him again.. he answered(confidently) wit d same thing.. then all 4 of us start burstin up laughin.. hahahahaha... *rollin on floor*.. he on d other hand still blur.. his idea was hai zi=er zi..children=sons.. so kena kutuk habis2 la.. he was so shy he was blushin! hahahhaha.. give him another chance to change..
mandarin: wo ba you 5 ge hai zi.. 3 ge nu hai zi, 2 ge nan hai zi..
translated: my dad has 3 children.. 3 girls, 2 boys..
he jz somehow could not put in sons n daughters together.. mixing up sons=children which was hilarious.. we certainly had a good laugh there.. my stomach still hurt from tat laugh.. hahahah.. not only perut kenyang from makan, tapi kaugh oso can kenyang.. hahahah.. chi bao, xiao bao.. hahahah..

Back home now.. sittin in front of pc.. relaxing 4 d big day tmr.. izzy wizzy was so kind to offer his support 4 my nervousness.. his solution? try breathing like pregnant lady when u're nervous.. it works! paused 4 2 secs.. then start laughin.. hahahahahah.. hahahahahha... *rollin on floor*.. stopped 4 5 secs start again.. hahahahah... had to put hands on stomach cos too sakit from all tat laughin d.. akhirnya bongkar rahsia izzam.. he breathe like pregnant lady when nervous! hahahha.. but so glad he's here to chat.. if not sure think too much n get more nervous..

On d lat note.. thanx to all for being so kind sending ur wishes 2 me.. much appreciated... so blessed.. so loved.. awww~ group hug.. heheheh.. jie oso so nice call all d way.. bear hug.. now to prepare 4 tmr.. fan kao lo.. hopefully don get insomnia n gettin results wit panda eyes.. tat'll be bad! hahahaha.. okie.. cukup 4 now.. till next post.. zzzz ;P

Confessions

Days r passing by slowly. As i await nervously 4 d day to come. Oh god please help me! As the day come inching by slowly n slowly, i cant help but feel my heart pounding a hundred beat a second. What am I talking about. Election day? Oh that's came and gone. More like Mac 11th. D day. Results day.

I'll always remember myself telling people :"Oh c'mon! It's just results day. Dont have to worry so much. Everythin' will go well. U'll do fine, fabulous, score with flyin colors, etc etc.." But when it's u it's a whole different story. As i was packing up my books tat i've flipped thru so much 4 d past year n a half(it's still in good condition), i cant help but wonder to myself:"what d heck did i do d whole time i was studyin? d books r still clean, ink free, exercises clear of pencil marks, even pass year questions r not finished!" i'm doom-ed!!!

everytime i express my concern to others they'll just say:"u're a star stu. wat r u afraid of? just wait 4 d A's to pour in. then u'll start crying. of cos tears of joy!". i know i'm sounding like a pathetic fool here, but i'm just oh so worried. it's as if d whole world is on my shoulder. i keep shouting but no 1 is listening! hooo~

I've always been a person who have an imagination too wild to handle. i think too much. i keep thinking how disappointed ppl will be with my results on that day. how ppl will be pointing fingers at me. but wat i'm most afraid of now is not living up to d expectations ppl hv in me. they'll be so devastated that i dont think i'll be able to handle it. i've always had a weak side that i cant let ppl down. oh no! must also do what others expect me to do, what others expect me to achieve. i think tis is d after effect of being a middle child. not tat i'm complainin. but it's true. it's hurtful at times to be d middle child. even more so if u hv siblings who r oh so talented in every way imaginable. u cant help but feel so pressured to live up to tat standard set or else u'll always be left behind, unnoticed. jz an unwanted accessory. i remember thinkin when i was younger i hated being a middle child, getting caught in between d ever-so-loved younger sibling who'll be loved no matter wat he or she did wrong or right as well as d elder sibling who's ever-so-perfect in everything he/she does. wtf! it's as if no matter wat u do, u'll nv be loved. it gets so tensed to prove u r better tat sometimes it takes u down so much u cant climb up anymore. as if nobody's there to help ya! despite all these happenings, i've managed to pull thru till now. i've always considered myself blessed 4 havin a vy caring older sister. she's always there 4 me despite bein so far away n so bz wit her job over there. she somehow knos when i need her most. like a child, i still cant help but be envious of her at times. jz look at her! everything she does seems flawless, perfect, fabulous! i'll jz crawl back into my 'shell', take a deep breath, come out with my trademark smile as if nothing is happenin. .

after blabbing on so much, i think it's typical human to care so much of wat others think n tend to forget wat's d most important of all. wat u think? wat u want? wat u dream? but i feel so relieved letting it all out now. i'm so confused rite now. but lesser compared to be4 i started. let's leave it here 4 now. till d next post. signin out! hmmm~